FAQ
DISCLAIMER: This is probably the most cynical thing I’ve written in a very long time. I don’t actually feel this way… at least mostly. I just thought it would be fun to write. But seriously, if you want to print this off and give it to your parents… DO IT.
Tomorrow is my last day at Family Life. I’ve been interning here all summer, just under 40 hours a week, in the video department. I have learned that I do not feel the fullness of God when I am shooting/editing video. I had a hunch that that would be the case, and this summer confirmed it.
Yesterday, I was whining at my dad about how I am sick of people asking me, “So, what’s next?” He suggested that I create a FAQ sheet, and when people ask me, I can just give them a copy! I think he was kidding, but here it is anyway.
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FAQ’s re: James Lepine’s Future as a Human
When do you head back to school?
I have graduated. On May 8th of this year, I received my degree. I majored in Broadcast Journalism and minored in Political Science.
Oh! Well that must be a nice feeling. So, do you want to go into broadcast? Like, radio, or TV…
Thank you for clarifying what you meant by “broadcast.” Even though I majored in it, I some times forget what it means. And I don’t know if I want to “go into it.” I worked at a radio station during all four of my college years, and I don’t really want to rush into a 9-5 job.
So, have you applied for something, or what are you gonna do?
No, I actually decided to just not apply for anything. I’m planning on living at home until I retire – from doing nothing – at age 65.
Oh, wait! I almost forgot – I applied at Daytrotter. And Paste, WEXP/AIR, RhythmInTwenty, and Little Rock Christian. But I didn’t get any of them. But I’m glad to talk about it again! Thank you for your genuine concern with my future!
I probably won’t get the free trip to Donald Miller’s writing conference either, but I’ll letcha know on that.
Oh, and in case you didn’t know, my driver’s licensce is suspended until December 1st, because I got a DWI on May 1st, and so I’ll probably just stick around Little Rock until then, unless something comes up. I mean, my cousin is getting married in December, and I’m in Micah Sims’ – oh, you know him? sweet. – Well, yeah, I’m in his wedding on New Years Day. So hopefully I’ll have a plan by then.
And where are you in the line of kids again?
I’m actually right in the middle! So, yeah.
OH, you want me to catch you up on everybody else. Ok, sweet. Well, Amy – yeah, she’s the oldest – she and her husband and one and a half year old daughter – they all moved to Upland, Indiana. Her husband – Jack, yes – he’s teaching at Taylor University this Fall. They are still adjusting from moving from HIP, URBAN, CULTURALLY DIVERSE Seattle, to RURAL, HOMOGENEOUS, BUBBLE-ENVIRONMENT Upland. But they’ll be okay.
Katie, and her husband – yes, Elliott – they’re in Brooklyn, and they LOVE IT. Katie is in H-R at Turner Construction – they are actually the company that built the new New York Yankees stadium.
*attempt at changing the subject… by the way, did you hear that George Steinbrenner died recently? You didn’t? Oh. Okay, nevermind.
Yeah, so, John. He’s a sophomore at the University of Tulsa. He loves it there. Why did he decide to go there? Because he got an awesome scholarship. And yes! My dad and mom did just so happen to go there. WHAT A GREAT MEMORY YOU HAVE!
David will be a Junior at Little Rock Christian (the school at which I was not hired. Let me know if you wanna rehash any of that.) He is awesome at everything he does, too. He and John will probably both get awesome jobs as soon as they graduate from their out-of-state, fully-paid-for educations.
Which reminds me, did I tell you that I don’t yet have a job?
Okay, well I gotta get going!
Are you sure?! I’d love to keep chatting!! You don’t have any more questions you can think of?! Wait, let me ask you some!!
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I’m doing my best to be patient and joyful.
The path of right-living people is level. The Leveler evens the road for the right-living. We’re in no hurry, God. We're content to linger in the path sign-posted with your decisions. Who you are and what you've done are all we'll ever want.
Isaiah 26:7-8
Living A Better Story
Stories are supposed to have a dramatic arc – a tipping point, perhaps. I think God has brought me to the tipping point in the story we’re writing together.
Three months ago, I got arrested for a DWI. I was driving some friends who had also been drinking, and when I tried to turn the car around at some railroad tracks, God seized the opportunity to lodge one of my tires in between the ties.
I blew a .22 into the portable breathalyzer and spent a night in jail. I made a collect call to my folks, and they came to bail me out.
A week later, I walked across the stage at Arkansas State University and received my college diploma. A degree in Broadcast Journalism. A minor in Political Science. A departure from Jonesboro. With honors.
About two weeks later, I drove home drunk again.
A couple of weeks after that, I drunkenly witnessed to a homeless guy at a bar. It was my birthday. I had chugged a bunch of whiskey before going to see The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo, and all I thought about during the movie was how I wished it was over so I could go drink more.
Two weeks after that, I drank (most of) a bottle of wine called “Bohemian Highway.” It was Tuesday.
The next night, I met with the elders at church, expressing my desire to lead worship on Sunday mornings.
That was the night – four weeks ago today – when I decided to quit drinking. I’ve stayed true to that decision, if you don’t count the communion wine at church.
In about two weeks, my internship in the video production department at Family Life will be over. I can’t tell you how many times people have asked me, “So, what’s next?”
I can tell you what’s not next.
I didn’t get in at RhythmInTwenty.
I didn’t get in at Paste.
I didn’t get in at Daytrotter.
And I didn’t get in at KEXP/AIR.
I’m not moving to Birmingham to be close to a girl that I’ve dated off and on for the past six years.
I’m not taking a job in radio.
But I’m writing a story, and I think it’s the one that God would have me write. The one where I sell my car, and ride my bike, and clear my head, and pray non-stop, and learn what it means to truly trust in Him.
Don told us to be specific with what we write… And I’d love to be specific. I’d love to say, “This is exactly what I’m going to do over the next couple of months and years.” But that’s what I’ve been saying for the past 22 years, and God has brought me to a point where I just don’t know what my next move is going to be.
So, this is as specific as I can be right now.
My goal for the next couple of the months is exactly what it was 4 weeks ago. To lead worship at church. Maybe that’s not much of a goal, but it’s what I got. The challenge was given to me by an agnostic friend before he took off for basic training with the Air Force. He said, “I don’t wanna come home and see you burned out, drinking all the time, and not doing anything with you life.” That stuck with me.
Leading others before the throne of God is a privilege and an honor, so I will be both waiting patiently, and taking the necessary steps, to get to a point where the elder board says, "Yeah. You're our guy this week. Go for it."
That’s probably gonna mean more lunches with older guys (which I love,) and helping with sound, or playing djembe, or teaching at Kids Kamp, or going on the Youth Retreat. Areas towards which I would not normally gravitate… but I am confident that God will teach me humility and joy throughout them.
I’m also going to plan to write five days a week, even if it’s not much. I want to average 1,000 hits a week on my website, and the way to make that happen is to keep flexing my creative muscles and inviting others to join in the conversation.
This is what my grandma told me recently: “Jim, talented people don’t always know what they want to do. There are a lot of things you could do – it’s just figuring out what you’re supposed to do.”
Thank God for grandmas. And for grace, when we reach our tipping points.
So, yes, I want to attend this conference because I want to learn more about co-authoring my story with God. But I also want to take my grandma out to lunch and say, “Guess what? I figured out what I’m supposed to do!” And I want God’s grace and glory to be evident through it all.
More information on this contest here, and in the video below.
Go Do Something You Hate! Being Miserable Builds Character!
* The title of this post is taken from a Calvin and Hobbes comic strip. All hail the great Bill Watterson. *
For those of you don’t know, I am interning at Family Life this summer. Family Life is the ministry where my dad works. He’s the co-host of Family Life Today… a 30-minute radio program that brings in a million and a half listeners a week.
Every week, we have intern meetings with two or three guys from the ministry. They’re investing in our lives, and hoping to help us learn more about our “S.H.A.P.E.”, which is an acronym that basically means passion.
I was working on a questionnaire a couple of weeks again, and one of the things it asked was, “What do you like to do in your spare time?”
I’m a little wary of even the term “spare time,” but that’s for a different blog post. This is how I responded to the question.
“I love travelling. I love being on the road, seeing new things and places. I love playing music. I love live music. I enjoy playing pool with friends. I like learning about anything. Recently, I enjoy watching a season of a good TV show. I’ve also found that I like being outside, whether it’s relaxing on a beach or hiking through the woods or floating down the Buffalo River. I especially love it when I do something that I think I am going to hate, but I end up loving it and learning a lot from it.”
It’s the last sentence in that response that I want to focus on today.
I am not a morning person. At least, I didn’t use to be. Now I’m sort of a morning and night person. Both are good, and it would be a shame to miss out on one or the other.
But I had to start getting up early, with a good attitude, to realize that, Yeah, morning actually is pretty nice! Everything is waking up with me. The sun, the breeze, other people… I can feel just – if not more! – alive in the morning as I do lying under the stars late at night.
But it took a couple of things for me to make that realization:
A good attitude (not dismissing the possibility of enjoyment), dedication (doing it more than once), and commitment (going to bed earlier enough that I would be able to get up.)
The end product was joy, even though originally, the morning was something I avoided.
I think this is a lesson that we can learn from a lot of situations in life. There is always a reason, always a purpose, and even if we don’t like it at first, a good attitude, a steadfast dedication, and a solid commitment, will make a world of difference.
I’ll end with a quote from C.S. Lewis that popped up in my twitter feed the other day:
“No soul that seriously & constantly desires joy will ever miss it. Those who seek find, to those who knock it is opened.”